Still Around - Still Doing My Thing

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Happy 2012 Everybody!

I must say so far, 2012 has been the best year of my life. Why? Because my stress level is so low at this point in time that I find myself laughing and smiling more than I used to.

And it's all because of the love of a good man.

What started out as an internet hookup turned into something more and I've found myself, for the first time in my entire life, completely in love with someone. And the scary part is the fact he loves me back. He respects me, he values my opinions, he doesn't verbally abuse me, he listens to me when I have a problem and I give him the same respect in return. And he adores my kids! That's important to me.

I filed for divorce from my first husband about a month ago and I'm just waiting for that to finish because I have plans to marry this man. And he has plans to marry me.


On my IMVU.com profile homepage, I have this sticker that reads the following:

I'm quiet - Doesn't mean I don't have a lot to say.
I'm sarcastic - Doesn't mean I don't take it seriously.
I forgive - Doesn't mean I forget.
I'm stubborn - Doesn't mean I'm not easy-going.
I don't show my feelings - Doesn't mean I don't have any.
I'm not like you - Doesn't mean I'm weird.
I don't say "I Love You" - Doesn't mean I don't.


I used to think some of these things about myself. But over the last 2 1/2 months, I've come to learn that I can show my feelings, that I can cry in front of those I care about and that I can say "I Love You" to those that deserve it. And I'm finding out that I can be open and honest. My trust - it's not an easy thing to gain, but I trust him with my very life. If this is what love does to a person, then I am so glad I found someone deserving of my love.

I'm so used to keeping things bottled up inside as he's seen on one or two occassions. It's why I'm so stressed out 95% of the time. But he's made me see that there is someone who cares about how I feel and encourages me to share my feelings. He did that for me. No amount of "thank yous" in the world can covey my appreciation to him for this alone. I feel like about 1000-pound weight has been lifted off my shoulder.


So I say to those that are looking: I used to think Happily Ever After was for fairytales. But I've finally found mine, and I'm completely happy. :)

© 2012 - 2024 LadyBelz
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